Monday, January 14, 2008

Destiny - a matter of chance?

Destiny is not a matter of chance, it is a matter of choice; it is not a thing to be waited for; it is a thing to be achieved. ~ William Jennings Bryan

These words have always touched me. Since I first read them I have looked for the way to reach my destiny. I turn down different roads each time I go looking. Some turns are good and some are not so good.

The most wonderful turn I took was saying yes to the man that asked me to marry him. This turn in the road has been the most wonderful one in my journey to my destiny. It is a risk taking turns in the road especially when we can't see around that next corner. But I am so glad I decided not to care what was around the bend because I would be with a good man.

The turn that I took that wasn't so good - well, it changed a lot of things in my life. I took a chance on making some serious changes in where I was going to live, how I was going to make my living and I found out that it was the wrong turn for me. I ended up losing site of my own goals and dreams and found out that what I was trying to do really wasn't for me. I ended up very lost and feeling very alone. And then I ended up getting very sick. Trying to get back up and walking on that road again has been a challenge.

But this is the thing about destiny, if we don't go down those roads, whether they are the right ones or not, we are not going to know which way to go. That last turn could have ended up being the right one, but there was no way for me to know that unless I took the chance and took that step at the fork of that road in my life. This is another thing about destiny, sometimes we just know that a certain road is not the right one. I knew before I ever started on that road that it wasn't the one for me to take. I still left but it was for all the wrong reasons.

When we set out to achieve our destiny, we have to look close at what it is we want for just us and no one else. If we take a left instead of a right and find out that we should have taken the right, then there is no reason why we can't turn around and go right. There isn't anything wrong with that. If it's right for you, then that is what matters.

Here it is a year later. I told myself I would give myself a year to heal. I took my time and just let myself be for awhile. Stopping and taking a break from walking down the road of destiny is something we have to do sometimes. I'm glad I did.

The road of destiny beckons to me again and slowly but surely, I'm starting to take those steps and am ready to go around the next bend in the road.